A weekend reset from the messy middle, for those who don't know what's next… but know something has to change. In NYC Sept 11-13.

Led by Alexandra Roxo, Jackie Cantwell & Moun D’Simone

There are seasons where you know the old version of your life doesn't fit anymore, but you have absolutely no idea what comes next. 

Maybe you’re ready to leave the career you’ve spent years building. Maybe a relationship has ended. Maybe you’re moving, starting over, or realizing that the things you once wanted no longer feel like yours.

It’s disorienting. You can feel like you’ve lost yourself while everyone else seems to have a plan. A lot of us try to rush through that space. We panic and force an answer. You cling to the old dream, or convince yourself you just need to work harder at a life that no longer fits.

But what if the messy middle isn’t something to escape?

What if it’s an opportunity for a reset?

Because without that pause, it’s easy to create what comes next from the same expectations, fears, habits, and stories that shaped what came before.

The messy middle gives you a chance to ask better questions, grieve what no longer fits, get honest about what isn’t working, and what we no longer want. It can be fucking scary to stay there! The past is familiar, even when you know you’re done with it…. but you don’t have to move through this part alone.


Come be with us in the middle of it all. You don’t need to know exactly where you’re going... You just need enough space, support, and honesty to take the next step.

SAVE YOUR SPOT

the dream is born in the messy middle

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the dream is born in the messy middle 〰️

SIGNS YOU MAY BE IN THE MESSY MIDDLE:

  • You know what you've outgrown, but not what's next.

  • You don't know what you want anymore, and that terrifies you.

  • You achieved the dream and it didn't feel the way you thought it would.

  • You have a good life and still feel like something is missing.

  • You just ended a relationship.

  • You left a career with nothing lined up.

  • You moved to a new city and feel like a stranger to yourself.

  • You feel stuck or paralyzed by life.

  • You are grieving a person, a relationship, or a version of yourself.

  • You are starting to want things you were taught not to want.

  • You keep waiting for permission to want what you actually want

  • You feel it in your body before you can say it out loud.

  • You're afraid that wanting something different will disappoint the people who celebrated the person you've become.

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Expert Led Sessions

ALEXANDRA ROXO

Alexandra guides deeply embodied experiences that weave together breath, sound, movement, emotional opening, and partner practices. Bridging the spiritual, the relational, and the sensual, her work invites a reclamation of your emotions, your body, your sensuality, and your erotic aliveness. Together, you’ll explore the places you’ve learned to hold back, soften what has gone numb, and move closer to the edge of your own truth, so you leave feeling more alive, more expressed, and more fully yourself.

MOUN D’SIMONE

Moun's sessions bring together Buddhist psychology, parts work, and inner child healing in a container that’s both precise and deeply tender. Through visualization, journaling, storytelling, and partner work, you will meet the parts of you that have learned to survive at the expense of the dream. Here you befriend your inner world, practice being witnessed, and find your way back to the part of you that is resilient, and willing to move through anything.

JACKIE CANTWELL

Jackie creates experiences that bring people back into relationship with themselves through sound, storytelling, creativity, reflection, and honest conversation. Her sessions make space for grief and joy, uncertainty and possibility, quiet and laughter to exist side by side. Together, you'll explore what it means to stay connected to yourself as you continue to change, reconnect with your own creative voice, and remember that being fully alive isn't about having all the answers - it's about having the courage to keep participating in your life.

THE MESSY MIDDLE IS WHERE DREAMS ARE BORN.

what This Weekend is Not:

This is not a yoga retreat. Not a therapy weekend. Not a manifestation seminar.

Honestly... we don't know exactly what category this belongs in either.

WHAT IT IS:

Three facilitators who are actual friends, not a curated lineup, bringing Buddhist psychology, parts work, embodiment, desire, grief, sound, and creativity into the same room at the same time. Each method works on a different part of you. Together they work on all of you.

Most retreats feel like a one time high. This one promises an experience you will carry with you long after the weekend ends. Not a highlight reel. Not a temporary high. A real shift in how you relate to yourself and to the dream of your life.

And it happens in New York City. Not in a retreat center bubble removed from your life. Here, in the middle of the world, because that is exactly where the practice has to work.

You are not lost.

You're in the messy middle.

Between the three of us, we've spent decades teaching, facilitating, creating, performing, writing, mentoring, and guiding hundreds of thousands of people around the world through moments of change, awakening, grief, creativity, healing, self-discovery, leadership, and BECOMING.

But the truth is, this retreat didn't start in a classroom. It started with friendship.

A few years ago we found ourselves together in India saying yes to life over and over again.

  • Meditating in caves.

  • Driving 14 hours through mountain roads toward Tibet.

  • Swimming naked.

  • Praying.

  • Laughing until we cried.

  • Freak dancing in ashrams.

  • Starting dance parties in tiny restaurants.

  • Falling apart.

  • Putting ourselves back together.

  • Getting lost.

  • Finding ourselves.

  • And learning, again and again, how to stay open to life while it was happening.

That trip became a reminder of something we all teach in different ways: Life is not something you figure out from the sidelines.

It asks to be LIVED.

Our Friendship Story

Better Together

We've been taught to think of dreaming as something deeply individual, as though we're supposed to figure it all out on our own. 

But we don't become ourselves in isolation.

We become ourselves in relationship.

How You Walk Away

We'll move. We'll lie down and listen to heart and soul and body. We'll tell stories we've never said out loud. We'll laugh and cry. We'll wear the outfit. We'll dance, and we'll make something. We'll tell the truth. We'll feel it all

Leave feeling f*cking lit. Remembering who you are. Feeling more connected to your creativity, your sensuality, and your own inner knowing.

Leave more willing to tell the truth, make peace with change, dream bigger, change your mind, and participate FULLY in your one precious life.

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The Dream is two and a half days in New York City to find the thread back to yourself and learn to hold it through anything.

SEPT 11th - 13th

Friday: 7pm - 9 pm

Saturday + Sunday: 10am - 7pm with lunch break

ONE TIME PAYMENT

$1000

3 x MONTHLY PAYMENTS

$333

  • The retreat investment includes expert led sessions, shared group experiences, and a full weekend of practice, community, and expression in New York City.

  • Here's a sample structure for two and a half days:

    Friday: 7pm - 9pm
    Welcome gathering, introductions, opening circle with all three teachers and the full group.

    Saturday: 10am - 7pm
    Morning sessions. Lunch break. Afternoon sessions. Evening group connection.

    Sunday: 10am - 7pm
    Morning sessions. Lunch break. Afternoon sessions. Evening gathering. Integration, connection, farewell.

  • Once you register you will receive the full schedule, location and everything you need to prepare for the weekend. If you have any questions please reach out to Jackie at jackienicolecantwell@gmail.com

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Our Bios

Alexandra Roxo is an artist, bestselling author of F*ck Like a Goddess and Dare to Feel, transformational coach, and teacher whose work explores the intersection of spirituality, sexuality, creativity, and healing. She has spoken at festivals worldwide, appeared in two seasons of Netflix's Too Hot to Handle, and been featured in the New York Times, Harper's Bazaar, Vogue, The Guardian, and Playboy. Known for her raw, honest approach, she is a fierce advocate for every human's right to meaningful love, juicy deep sex, and the reunion of spirituality and sexuality — healing that collective shadow by starting with ourselves. 

She is a mother to a vibrant 2.5 year old girl, and has been on a lifelong healing and spiritual journey since meeting her first teacher who taught her about karma at age 12.  She’s worked through healing sexual trauma, being a child raised in a home with mental illness and addiction and lots of other healing curriculums through tantra, shamanism, conscious kink, ayahuasca and other plant medicines, decades of therapy and spiritual practice, but mostly through creativity and expression and feeling it all.

Moun D’Simone is a Brazilian-born Buddhist practitioner, artist, and teacher whose work is rooted in Tibetan Buddhism, inner child healing, somatic practice, and art. She’s the founder of the Dakini House, an online temple and global community of women. Her work was recently featured on the Oprah Insider App.

For over a decade she’s guided women back to themselves, teaching at Omega, Kripalu, Maha Rose, and training with some of the masters of our time on extended retreats in India, Nepal, and Indonesia. Heartfelt and experiential, mystical and practical, her teachings are playful, relatable, irreverent, and deeply rooted in community. Moun's path has been shaped as much by loss as by study. The death of her mother Patricia cracked her open in ways no teaching could, and it’s from that place that her deepest work was born. To the women she works with, she becomes more than a mentor. She’s a spiritual big sister who guides you back to your own power, truest expression.

Jackie Cantwell is a speaker, artist, facilitator, and Director of Sound for The Big Quiet. Over the last decade she has guided experiences for audiences ranging from intimate circles to arenas of more than 15,000 people through collaborations with Oprah, Nike, Lady Gaga, and other leading organizations. She is the creator of Audible best-selling meditations featured on American Airlines and the founder of Bowl Club, a facilitator training program dedicated to helping people create meaningful experiences and lead with authenticity.

Her work explores the intersection of grief, creativity, community, and presence. Following the death of her father and years spent caregiving for her mother through a rare neurological illness, Jackie became deeply interested in what it means to keep participating in life as it continues to change us. Through sound, storytelling, conversation, and gathering, she invites people to reconnect with themselves, with one another, and with the life that's unfolding in front of them.

Frequently Asked Questions

  • No prior experience is needed. This weekend is designed to meet you exactly where you are, whether you have been doing this kind of work for years or you are walking into a room like this for the first time. The only thing required is a willingness to show up honestly. It can be emotionally real. We will be working with real dreams, real grief, real desire, real truth. But depth is never forced here. You will always have agency over how far you go, and you will not be alone in it.

  • Each day moves between individual sessions with each teacher, shared group experiences, and time to integrate, rest, and connect with the women around you. Breaks for coffee and lunch. Expect mornings that ground you, afternoons that open you, and evenings that bring the group together. The full schedule will be shared upon registration.

    Friday: 7pm - 9 pm

    Saturday + Sunday: 10am - 7pm with lunch break

  • We will share suggestions for hotels and Airbnbs in the area, and connect you with other attendees in case you want to explore shared housing options.

  • Yes, the options are listed at check out.

  • Yes, all three of us will be present for the full weekend. You will have dedicated sessions with each of us individually as well as time together as a group.

  • Most retreats offer one teacher, one method, one lens. This weekend you get three women who have each spent decades doing this work, approaching The Dream from different directions. Buddhist psychology and parts work, embodiment and desire, grief and creativity and sound. Together they tell a story no one of them could tell alone.

    This retreat also grew out of a real friendship. Alexandra, Jackie, and Moun did not meet at a conference. They have lived life together, traveled together, fallen apart and put themselves back together in each other's company. That history is in the room with you all weekend.

    And the premise itself is different. This is not about arriving somewhere better or becoming a new version of yourself. It’s about learning to stay connected to the dream through all of it, the grief, the change, the uncertainty, the beautiful mess of being alive. That is a different orientation and container than most retreats.